Life begins at 40 (Home)

I am envious of people who work and still have the energy/motivation to go out and do things after work and on the weekends*. I come home from work and I have a headache, my body often aches and I’m just tired. I have a job where I sit all day and in theory I should not feel exhausted, but I do. I know I need to get out and be active either before or after work. I did that for a while. Then work got incredibly busy and the first thing that gets put at the bottom of the list is me. I am crappy at taking care of myself in the midst of everything else. So now I have been back in my rut of being at the computer with the TV on in the background, snacking mindlessly**and not doing much of anything for myself. I need to kick myself in the butt.

*I have lived here for almost 4-1/2 years and I don’t have much to show for it in terms of a social life and it’s my fault. Tumblr is my social life.

**I don’t even want to focus on the kind of eating I’m doing. I just want to get myself to be active again and stick to it, even when I get busy with work. Why can’t I/won’t I take care of myself when I need it? I piss myself off.